Dear Diary . . . day by day

Monday, August 20th, 2001 - Sadness

Remember how on Saturday I said I was generally pleased with my life and it was an emotion I'd like to keep around for awhile?
Yeah. Cancel that. Once again forces beyond my control are determined to keep me as sad as possible.
Sigh. Yesterday started out nice. Tim got up a little before me, and once we were both up and dressed we went for our weekly brekkie at Mama's Royal Cafe. Yuuuum. Even the 40 minute wait for a table (typical for a weekend) didn't diminish the tasty eggs, veggie links and hash browns.
We walked back and it was just so nice. A Sunday stroll. We were both planning on working the rest of the day and hanging out again in the evening. I was going to call some friends of mine, catch up on their lives, let them know how much they still matter to me.
I never got beyond the first phone call, the one where I discovered the peson I was talking to doesn't respect me or even like me all that much. I feel like such a fool. Oh, gods, it hurts.
Anyway. I'm sad. Tim came down and held me while I cried for a few hours. Then we went and rented Buffy episodes I haven't seen and had sandwiches and ice cream. The evening was punctuated by occasional tears or rants from me. Neither one of us got any work done at all yesterday.
Thank gods for Tim. He couldn't make it all better, but he kept me company while I mourned. I feel bad that he didn't get any work done, but that wasn't really my fault.
Sigh. I miss my old friend. But I miss my happy mood just as much.

Exercise log:
Crying is exhausting but is probably cancelled out by ice cream.
Writing log:
Too sad. Today I have to, though.
I almost forgot! Check out my article on Nalo Hopkinson's Midnight Robber in Strange Horizons. Warning: If you haven't read the book, this article will spoil all the plot twists for you; so go buy her book and read it first!
I'm currently reading:
Drawing of the Dark by Tim Powers
The Legacy of Luna by Julia Butterfly Hill
Out of the Everywhere by James Tiptree Jr.
The Mammoth Encyclopedia of Science Fiction

As well as various books on San Francisco and a couple books on Fairies.
My new PO Box is:
Heather Shaw
P.O. Box 13222
Berkeley, CA 94712-4222

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