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| Yesterday was so weird. I had stayed over at Corn and
Rebecca's (both for comfort 'cause David was leaving, and to celebrate
Rebecca's Birthday weekend) and got home late in the afternoon. And I
wanted to call David, to talk like we always do. But David was on the road. Now, I miss David almost as soon as he leaves. I talk to the boy every day, he's my best friend, my "family" out here. When I can't call him up, I feel it. And the fact that he's going to be gone until late Saturday night (unless Utah bores him silly, which it just might, in which case he'll leave earlier), even though he's now phone-accessible, is sad-making. No, what was weird yesterday was that 3 of the people I love most in the world were traveling. Mom left early Saturday (she's driving out here), David left early Sunday and Holly continues her European tour in Edinburgh, Scotland (where she's got a sublet and a job waiting tables in a strip bar....heh. Thank goodness for little sisters raising Mom's eyebrows before I get a chance). Now, Corn admonished me severely for worrying ("You've got to trust people to live their own lives") but I was raised on worry, especially worry over travel. I was despondant yesterday, wishing everyone was in their proper place, dammit. Or at least not moving. Thankfully, David gave me a call when he got in to Utah. It was such a relief to hear his voice, and I was pleased that he called (but not TOO pleased, so don't worry, David). | ||
| So, since Mom's on the road, I'm feeling a
bit free-er with this journal. Have any of you guessed the new boyfriend?
Mom was pestering me to tell her who it was, which caused me to clam up
quite a bit. I mean, how do you tell your mother that you're dating a
married man? Yes, of course his wife knows. She has several boyfriends of her own, thank you. It's the beauty of polyamory. These two have the most stable, happy marriage I've ever seen, I think. (Well, except for Brian and Kellie, but we can't really compare 3 months to 9 years, can we?) My guess is that they can see other people, and they're open about it, so they don't get bored. Or feel stuck. Y'know... Hmmm. I think, after two rather dramatic attempts at poly, that I finally get it. It helps that I'm still sorta seeing David, whom I love dearly, while I get all involved and excited over Corn and our NRE (New Relationship Energy). I think that's the trick, learning to love two people at once. It's a very "Have your cake and eat it too" sort of feeling...I mean, I wouldn't want to give either one up for the other, or for anyone else for that matter. | ||
| David started to make fun of me about this, until I pointed out to him that *he* didn't get it, either, until he was dating both Mary Anne and me. Yes, it would have been nice had I had this realization a year ago, but fate works in funny ways, I guess. | ||
| The garden is booming. The tomatoes are so big that David and I
have had to put more stakes in to try and keep them from toppling over.
Every one of our plants has tomatoes on it, and hopefully now that I've
trimmed back some excess foilage, the Early Girls will ripen red in the
sun. We planted a row of lettuce (Romaine and a salad bowl mix) in the
row behind the tomatoes, in hopes of having many salads fresh from the
garden when the time comes. The chives are blooming, which is a nice
touch for the veggie patch. The fennel has two yellow-n-green striped
caterpillers on it; I'm hoping they'll pupate into butterflies.
My flower bed is blooming with bright orange and yellow calendula, white cosmos and bright pink zinnias (I think) and another bright pink plant. I've two bachelor's buttons - lavender and pink, and white cosmos in the back. The 4 o'clocks are looking healthy (though they're already too shaded by the rest of that garden) and the morning glories are just whipping up the trellis fence behind it all. Not quite as many blooms as I would have liked for mom's visit, but I think she'll be impressed nonetheless; I've never had a garden so large and abundant before. | ||
| I suppose I should go write something, or clean something. I've so much to do before Mom comes... | ||
| Thanks for reading! | ||
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