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Tuesday, March 30th, 1999

You guys'll forgive me a week off, won't you?
My life is too insane. I'm investigating good counselors. Judith gave me the name of a woman she highly recommends, but, unfortunately, she's a couples counselor. Of course, that's exactly what I want, couple counseling, but David steadfastly refuses to try any sort of counseling. So, I suppose I go alone.

It seems to be a theme.

The garden is an ongoing battle with snails and, (shudder) slugs. I can't tell you how good an idea/investment the copper around the vegetable garden is; we've yet to find a snail/slug within the perimeters (knock on wood). I can't imagine dealing with this disheartening battle with our edibles. Last Saturday I found a pair of slugs nestling under my purple pansy. They'd practically defoliated the back side of said pansy, and they were weathering out the sun underneath, just waiting for night to fall so their little rasping mouths could devour the rest. Ugh. This morning, I found large chunks missing from my marigold and one of my cinereria. These things are vile, awful, disgusting creatures.
I went to the Perverts Put Out reading that Mary Anne participated in last Saturday night. David and I were not in the best mood, as we missed Mary Anne's second message telling us the actual *name* of the restaurant we were supposed to meet at, causing us to walk up and down Haight several times (I was cold, hungry and not feeling well. David was hungry and had to use the bathroom. We ended up eating at Axum, and found them later). The venue was overheated, and I felt sick and immediately wanted to leave as soon as we got there.

If only I had.

I won't go into how David refused to get me a glass of water (there's nothing worse than feeling ill and feeling like no one believes you). I won't go into the negotiations over how Mary Anne would get home if we left early.

The first half of the reading (yes, we stayed) was fine, if a bit unrehearsed in parts. But the second...
See, most erotica anthologies have taboos that you can't write about. Not this one. No, the first story we heard from this anthology involved a man having sex with two dolphins. In his world, the dolphins were emotionally involved (whereas the sex he's had with other animals was just sex). Disgusting. I'm sorry, but if it doesn't speak your language to give you a "yes", it's not consenting. Then came a story with absolutely disgusting imagery about Buddha. Then a Morman incest/pedophilia/murder story. I felt so ill by this point that I left. Just walked out, telling David, "We're leaving NOW". I was halfway down the street before I noticed he wasn't following.

I don't care if he thought I was upset, sick or just didn't hear me. When your girlfriend walks out of a reading like that, you follow to make sure she's ok.

I went back up and got him. He had tuned out the last story (lucky for him), so he didn't realize I was upset by it. He thought I was "just sick". We drove home, had too long of a talk, and went to bed.

Sunday was David's birthday.

We went for a long walk around Lake Merrit. Talked about writing, which was nice. I made him white bean quesadillas (which turned out yummy) and heated up some of his black bean soup for dinner. I also made Strawberry Shortcake for dessert, which was too tasty for words. We watched Simpson, Futurama and X-Files, I gave him his gifts (a new wallet and tickets to the Giants/St. Louis game this July - to see Mark McGwire play), he took me home, killed snails, and went home.

Sorry, gang. I'm just not in the best of moods right now.
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