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Next Lifted weights after work yesterday (Chest and Triceps Day) Yoga
class on Tuesday evening.
Well, obviously the choice thing to do
here is to keep up with the exercise. I'm also disgusted at myself for
never updating my reading logs, so I'm putting it on this page where I
won't
tend to forget it as easily. I read a lot more than I mention here, and
it would be nice to have a list of what I've read. Whether or not I cull
these onto the "What I'm Reading Now" pages and add comments remains to be
seen. The Xenogenesis series - this book particularly - is depressing me
about humanity's faults. I also watched a movie last night with the new
guy I'm dating (I suppose I should name him soon) that was a big mistake
for the second date (or for any date really): Xiu Xiu: the Sent-Down Girl.
This movie is about a Chinese girl sent from the cities into the
countryside in the 1960's as part of Communist China's attempts to "even
out" the population. In her desperate attempts to achieve passage home,
she allows herself to be sexually taken advantage of by an increasing
number of men, while her guardian does nothing but look sullen. This
guardian eventually loses it after she starts getting visitors in the
middle of the night, but all he does is burn their shoes while they're
busy and yell at the girl about what a whore she is. She gets a bloody
abortion and all the nurses laugh about what a whore she is. She's all of
12 years old! Anyway, you can see why I didn't really feel all sexy
after the movie. I didn't even want my date to touch me, though he was so
freaked he was holding me very tightly. We ended up talking and then I
went home. I'm glad this wasn't our first date and I already know I like
him pretty well. Oh, but I was talking about what a mess humanity was,
right? In Xenogenesis they call it the Human Contradiction: intelligence
mixed with hierarchial behavior. As I'm driving home last night I hear a
radio show that talks about some new defense thing that no one is sure
even works that Clinton is thinking about signing (I try to ignore
politics, generally) and my radio host is all on about how this is shit
and how we should build a bigger military so we can prevent people who
think differently from us from doing anything about it (and prevent other
countries from taking such people in). And I want to cry. I shake my
head and it doesn't clear anything out, it just jumbles up. Hell if I
know what we should do; it wouldn't even be an issue if I had
super-powers, but I don't. I am afraid, because people with testosterone
problems are running the world and building bigger and bigger mousetraps
that are going to catch us all at once with one big SNAP! someday and
there's not a thing I can do about it except read more speculative fiction
and hopefully buy a big, secluded farm someday that will somehow, through
air currents and deep valley floors, be protected from nuclear
fallout. Deep breath. Sleep . . . I should get myself a good night's
sleep soon . . . .
Adulthood Rites (Book 2 in the Xenogenesis series) by Octavia
Butler
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Oh! The Humanity!
Exercise log:
I want to do some journal redesigning, but I'm not sure I'll have the time
anytime soon. I've added sidebars with my work-out log and the current
book I'm reading (I'm sure you noticed, but I'll mention it anyway); I
hope I keep that up, mainly so I can keep track and go back and have this
history for myself later. Of course, that means I can't really ever
disillusion myself and say, "Oh, yeah, back in May of 2000 I was
exercising every single day; I just need to do that again." And
if I *do* try and say that, you all can send me emails with angry links
telling me I'm full of bunk (if you feel like it; no requirements of
course). And then I'll slink away with my self-esteem crushed and moan at
you guys about how I'm . . . I'm currently reading:
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