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Friday, May 19th - Walk the Goddess Walk

(and Happy Birthday Melissa!)

Exercise log:

Lifted weights: legs day - oof! I also did the treadmill for 25 minutes afterwards, mostly reading but occasionally putting the book down and breaking into a funky run because a good song came on the radio. I then went home and walked to the pizza parlor around the corner, and nearly collapsed, my legs were so tired.
First of all, this link to Beth's entry today. My only addition is to say that it's not only stupid people who pull this kind of controlling stuff; it's just that intelligent, controlling people generally know how to get away with it. Bossy people drive me mad sometimes, but it *does* seem to be easier not to try and fight them, just hold my tongue and nod. Fighting them - arguing back, if you will - seems only to engage their sense of righteousness. You can't tell them they're wrong, and it's generally easier to try and stay out of the way and let others scurry around, fulfilling their whims.

Luckily I can't think of many bossy people in my life right now; the above is from past experience and is speaking, as Beth said in her entry, generally, not about anyone specifically.

Her last sentence, however, truly struck a chord with me. "I'm getting better and better at that whole walking away thing." My sister and I had a discussion the other day about my weekend, and she reminded me of a favorite quote of ours:

Walk away when you must

Walk the Goddess Walk

I have a lot of trouble walking away; my urge is always to fix things before I leave. It's truly difficult to just turn your back on someone you love who is mad at you, or with whom you're angry, and just walk away hoping you both can fix it later. Maybe I need to trust more in those sorts of friendships; probably I need to stop holding so very tightly to them. But walking away - without making a scene or a dramatic exit - is a very powerful tool. Maybe that's why I have trouble with it; I'm not exactly one of those people who wields a lot of power on a day to day basis. I need to work on that, though. My body is getting stronger, it's time to balance my mind and spirit with that.

So, I'm thinking about going to the Ancient Ways Festival next month. Jeff said he might go with me, but I think I'll plan on going it alone just in case he bails. I really really miss dancing all night around a fire to pagan drumming, and I think it would be a good thing for me to meet more pagan folk. And it will (hopefully) remind me of my goddessness ;-) and give me the strength to walk away when I must.

I'm currently reading:

Confidences of the Heart by David Schweidel, who is teaching my Intermediate Fiction Writing course this summer.

Just finished:
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling

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