integrity through movement
|...the intention driving my work | T E S T I M O N I A L S | ORGAN DONOR | 45x45 | Haunted by Desire|
"WE ARE IN THE FINAL EXAMINATION WHETHER HUMAN BEINGS QUALIFY TO TAKE ON THE RESPONSIBILITY WE'VE BEEN DESIGNED TO BE ENTRUSTED WITH." ~BUCKMINSTER FULLER
The Intention driving my work
Life within an ever imposing world economy based in the contradiction of perpetual growth on one hand, and scarcity and competition on the other has created a forbidding cultural schizophrenia. The connections we have--to one another, our sustenance, and more deeply, our most personal inner resources--are dulled, stifled and convoluted as results of the primacy on a single means of exchange.
We live within a modality of setting ourselves against one another in pursuit of what we assume or fear is scarce—energy, audiences, funding, beauty, sex, health, sanity—to the point at which our truest deepest selves have become scarce; our knowing of how to live together and take care of ourselves, the land and each other has become too large and complex of a task for this cultural myopia on a single means of exchange, all the while "specialists" are for hire, the remaining indigenous peoples need lawyers to live, and the world's great oceans are closer to dying than thriving because of the detritus of this economic system.
Social, environmental, and economic change can only happen from within ourselves and spread outward. So long as we are intertwined in this ever expanding and dominating economy based in the primacy of a single means of exchange that is driven by the feedback loop of perpetual growth > scarcity > competition > more growth, it is inherent to human evolution to examine its effects on our every-day lives. How has that feedback loop effected our ability to recognize the recourses at hand and therefore our capacity for informed decision making from the most influential to the seemingly most mundane like what we throw "away" or how we move through the world—how well do we know our own body's efficacy?
The body is the source of an infinite variety of movements and a nature resource from which to learn, yet the limiting effect this myopic cultural schizophrenia has on our imagination and intuition are rooted in our most creative centers, have been for several generations and has created a default through-culture of warring and waste, whether globally, socially, or within our own bodies. My work aims to activate levity, ritual, and catharsis through solo and collaborative movement and performance research. I believe it is from a place of identification, awareness, and release of the internal and external ‘scores’ we have confined ourselves to within a modality of scarcity and competition that we may build the skills within ourselves that are required to live and create from new definitions of power and a new economics.
T E S T I M O N I A L S
From Best 10 moments of queer performance in the last year are… (and why):
"Awesome show in the Oakland Hills."
Kyra Rice interviews with Frank Moore: http://www.radio4all.net/index.php/program/50013
Part dance, part installation of bodies, part an experiment in intimacy, we attempt to reveal and challenge the breakdown of immunitiescorporeal to global. Reclaiming connectivity to something bigger than the self we harvest common ground between seemingly disparate places insisting on shared resources, evolving in the body and love as our primary means of survival.
Video research and part of the installation:
where do you let go
* from Buffy Sainte Marie's, God Is Alive written by Leonard Cohen
collaborative notes by Kyra, Honey, and THEOFFCENTER during the making of 45x45:
Emael de Los Angeles's curatorial questions for CELEBRATE! San Francisco are:
It was our feeling we wanted to explore "collaboration" as the answer to the questions asked by the curatorial statement. In doing so we wanted to specifically approach the following:
What is it to work together? What is it like to work together?
When defining what are "present circumstances" we came up with the following list
When asking about best practices we answered the following
Metaphors / Images
We are performing the creation of a space in which to do our work.
Each core performer (Rotimi Agbabiaka, Kyra Rice, Rachael Dichter, Harold Burns, Ernesto Sopprani, Honey McMoney and Julie Phelps) is contributing one or more scores for improvised movement, ensemble work, speaking, etc., that relate to the outlined intentions. My goal is to weave those scores together creating a performative experience that is at once in recognition of the individuals involved while revealing the creative brilliance that can occur as a result of the collaborative process; something that is much bigger than the sum of its parts.
45x45 is part of a Performance Intervention Series produced by The OFFCENTER. I found it essential to this work to answer the following questions:
What are we intervening on?
How are we intervening?
And so we ask: What does it mean to work together?
What will this piece be a catalyst for?
One core performer asked: Why intervene?
September 25, 2010 images
Haunted by Desire
Jess asked us at one point to write about what brought us to this project.
In October, 2009 I received a divination by Malidoma Somé who told me to be the first in any given situation to give maximum attention to touch. I had also recently begun to understand desire as an evolutionary impulse. Around this same time Jess asked me and Erika to participate in developing a piece for two shows whose themes were a direct inquiry into 'desire' and that we would be exploring the theme of desire through touch within the container of Gravity's Symmetry score.
When touching another there is a distinction between mutually beneficial touch and not so mutually beneficial. For me the distinction occurs when one of the touchers stops using it as a means to listen. When one stops using touch as a means to a mutual communication the one they are touching becomes an "object of desire" and merely a reference point for the ego's fulfillment.
So coming from this perspective of desire being an evolutionary impulse and touch being inherently linked to the expression of physical desire, my research in this work with Jess and Erika has been around touch as a 'listening' and a tiny (or explosive) evolutionary expression. I am also looking at touch as something that can be taken—which can arise in much more subtle interactions than say, "stealing a kiss" or "copping a feel". And then looking at the effects of receiving touch passively, of going through the motions of touch without much desire.
In this process the questions I have been asking myself are: Can I stay present and in integrity with my desire AND present and listening to the one I am expressing my desire with? Can I track when I get over taken by my desire? Am I forgetting the individual humanity that is turning me on so much? Are there moments where one becomes neutral and the other just left taking--making it impossible to engage in a give and take? When one becomes neutral is it a turning off of sensation and therefore communication? There are volumes of explorative work around sex and desire, but what I’am wanting to focus on—and where I want to live as a discipline—is that place where touch is a mutual listening, a mutual conversation and expression of regard and desire for the other as a creative/evolutionary process.
I am loving being in my desire to do this research with Jess and Erika. But it’s been challenging too, to trust sharing that most vulnerable and essential part of myself. My challenge was to remain in integrity with what is important to me in this research, in working with a known womanizer who I crushed on in my youth. I struggled with trusting myself in being OUT with my desire to do this kind of research and being perceived as coming from some kind of moral high ground...That has nothing to do with my desire. Desire just is and this happens to be what I desire.
So Haunted By Desire is the collaborative result of our shared research, a lot of touching and moving together and Jess' sensual residue that "haunts" Erika's and my dance. It is a dance of my desire to reveal this place of touch as communication and as tiny as it may be, the universe expressing itself through my desire. To be giving touch maximum attention.
June, 2010 images